But angels are also not immune to darkness. There was a time when I was caught in an abusive relationship that slowly took control of everything, even my Holy Space online. He isolated me and cut me off friends, from joy and from the connection. Everything I left was YouTube. I switched on the camera and switched a portal out of the pain. I would sit in front of the lens and speak into the emptiness. I said to myself I will find my friends. You are in the ether. Then YouTube became my diary, a sanctuary and a phase in which my vulnerability could breathe. There were times when I stopped posting overall. I let the illusions of social media convince me that I wasn’t nice enough, but over time I realized that I would come in the seasons. In some seasons I wear less fruit than others, but that doesn’t make these moments less special. These offers, my vulnerability, my voice, my softness are always rooted in a little deeper in me.
